| Changes! |
[Mar. 24th, 2008|09:30 pm] |
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Chchchchchchchch Changes
:)
hehe, that's a weird song to have in my head, but very appropriate, given that Dan is moving in next weekend and my ex-roommate just moved out. I just wanted to alert the world :) |
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| test |
[Dec. 28th, 2007|08:59 am] |
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| Defeat |
[Dec. 3rd, 2007|09:27 pm] |
Universe: 1
Jennifer: 0 |
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| I graduate in 3 weeks. |
[May. 6th, 2007|01:26 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  in pain | ] |
Now I do grown-up things like get quotes on mortgage insurance. Also, periods suck, and I think I hate my art-project in progress. I never get to see my boyfriend anymore because senior year is getting so busy on the weekends, and then I'm going to Holden and won't see him for 2 months. Oh, and I'm looking for a house-mate to live in my wicked-cool condo with me and pay me money. I think that's it. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 7th, 2007|05:38 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | excited | ] |
I found a place and it's amazing! We're going to make an offer on Monday. I may even be able to close before going to Holden. Yay! |
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| argh |
[Apr. 4th, 2007|02:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  pissed off | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Coldplay | ] |
I just figured out that spider solitare counts each attempt at a game as a loss rather than rewarding me for my persistance. The system is clearly flawed--it favors cheaters who repeatedly hit the "undo" button to return to the begining and start over rather than those who select 'file-restart this game'. This revelation has now ruined my day. Boo.
Also, I have a complete lack of motvation and lack of energy, but I attribute this to my decision to give up coffee rather than senior slide. Anyone up for playing cards/watching movies/back rubs/not doing homework??? |
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| I don't have time for this... |
[Mar. 21st, 2007|02:29 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | pissed off | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Linkin Park | ] |
From my boss:
Hi Jennifer:
I'm feeling a bit frustrated with our conversation earlier today. Your
approach to dealing with your Friday shift has been disappointing to
me. I understand that eating (one bag lunch a week, within a certain
time structure) is very important to you, but it also doesn't seem as
though you are willing to also be understanding and accommodating of our
needs in the CEL. Your comment today about your being flexible about
the Tuesday night program really took me aback-- I'm not sure why you
were under the impression that you were required to do the presentation
with Katie and Kevin. It was my understanding that if the presentation
didn't work with your schedule, you certainly could have passed with no
consequence to me or them. Moreover, if you feel it is an imposition to
make presentations/work evening hours here or there, why did you sign up
for that role?
Jennifer, you are literally the only Peer Advisor who doesn't have class
at 11:40-12:50 on MWF. We really needed you to be available between
11:30-12 this semester, but I haven't pushed it. You are an incredibly
hard worker and a huge asset to the PA staff, and I feel like I have
worked hard to make things work for you. (We are already accommodating
your eating preferences two out of the three days a week and having
professional staff work out in the library area so you can do what is
best for you.) To now have the conversation we had today was really
disheartening to me...
I'd like you to be able to see things from our perspective. I
understand that this is the day before break, that you are under a lot
of academic pressure, and you are trying to get out of here as soon as
you can-- but it is an imposition on the professional staff's time to
staff the library area when we have so much on our plates that we need
to move forward on. It is not a great use of our time.
I spoke with Megan, and she is willing to cover your shift/the library
area on Friday morning between 10:30-12, so you need not come in. Just
know that I am disappointed by what transpired today.
Kirsten
What I would like to say:
Kirsten,
I apologize for the confrontational encounter this morning. Let me just clarify, I do have class from 11:40 to 12:50, and when I stated my availability at the beginning of the semester, I said I could work from 9 to 11 on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. I never said my availability went until 11:30. You may think that you are accommodating me by “letting” me get off at 11, but really, I am accommodating you by working until 11:30. This is, of course, conditional on my ability to get lunch some other way—when the bag lunch option closes, I am unable to work until 11:30.
Over interim, I was definitely enthusiastic about working the evening programs. However, for Larson, I replied to Katy that I would prefer not to work this evening because of my work load this week. After seeing that e-mail, you suggested that I should work anyway because of my experience, and indeed, I tried to be accommodating, assuming you would also be accommodating of me, the way you are accommodating to other PAs when they need to miss a shift (for example, Laurel missed two shifts this week and there wasn’t coverage from 9 to 9:30). I let you push me into working over my lunch hour, and I let you push me into working when I really don’t have time free. I’m not going to let you push me on this issue. I know that I don’t ask for very much, and I rarely miss work. I would like to think that you would be more understanding of the constraints on my time.
May I remind you that our intention was to reduce my hours worked throughout the semester as things became less busy. I hope you can understand why I am frustrated this week that you want me to add additional hours during a slow time in the CEL and a very busy time for me rather than reducing them as we had planned.
By the way, fuck you.
Jennifer |
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| concussion? |
[Mar. 10th, 2007|12:09 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | library | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  confused | ] |
Last night, I woke up and somehow managed to hit my head really hard on the corner of my desk. As far as I could tell last night, it wasn't bleeding so I went back to sleep (passed out?). I woke up with a miserable headache radiating from the point of contact, and felt fuzzy/dizzy throughout the morning. Natalie's Dad, the doctor, thinks I'm fine as long as it doesn't continue to get worse throughout the day and so long as I can respond to questions. That's good (though I was hoping it was a concussion because nothing cool ever happens to me). But I'm still trying to figure out how the hell I managed to smack my head against my desk while in bed. I must be special. |
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| ack! |
[Mar. 7th, 2007|08:34 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | mike doughty | ] |
i had a dream that Kari Jacobsen went to Olaf and played a practical joke on my pod by stealing everything out of the common room. She then pounded on my door to wake me up, and as soon as I figured out all the stuff was gone and it was her, she stabbed me with tranquilizer. Somehow, before I passed out, I got her in a mean headlock and then blacked out.
I think that warm milk before bed causes scary dreams. From now on, I'll switch to tequeila. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 6th, 2007|11:24 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | library | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | mac humming and footsteps | ] |
i feel paranoid. |
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| Crying |
[Mar. 4th, 2007|10:28 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | fragile | ] |
Yesterday evening, I went to the Rhythm Project with a few friends. At intermission, I looked down, realized my shoes were not at my feet/under my chair. I momentairly panicked and started crying, thinking I'd lost my shoes. My friends then pointed out that no one had their shoes--we left them outside because the show was in a studio. Laura asked me if I was really crying about the shoes. I think I was. But now I'm crying about Nick. |
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| a resurgance of my anger |
[Feb. 8th, 2007|05:13 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  angry | ] |
I think the hatred has started creeping out my ears and oozing out from under my finger nails. If I cut myself while shaving, it drips out of my legs, too.
I like to think that all these people who are getting engaged and married now will be the ones who get divorced later. It will happen to half of us, I and maintain that I have already suffered my life's worth of heartbreak. Haha, you suckers! You think it's all good and fine now, but just wait until your marriage is falling apart in 5 to 10 years. I, on the other hand, have already been through the wost part of my relational life and therefore, things can only get better. Oh, I'll be laughing then! |
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| Sucktastic start to Second Semester |
[Feb. 5th, 2007|06:33 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | pissed off | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Linkin Park | ] |
Boo, you bookstore sons of bitches.
Aarrr, you assholes at amazon.com.
Erk, you erroneous engaged/married people, and empathtizers of engaged/married people.
Crap, you cursed corporate finance professor.
Lark, you lousy library. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 31st, 2007|09:49 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Olaf!!! | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  flirty | ] |
*he* called! |
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| getting to Holden--decisions, decisions |
[Jan. 29th, 2007|10:40 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
round trip flight plus two nights (one each way) in a hotel--$750
Pros: speedy, luxurious
Cons: Costs 450 more
or
32 hours on a train through the rockies, no hotel needed--$300
Pros: Adventerous, less expensive, in spirit with the trip...
Cons: I might be forced to commit suicide, it's probably bad to take sleeping pills for 32 consecutive hours.
on an unrelated note:
Broc--wherever you are. You are hot. Please call me, leave me a message with your phone number so I can call you back, don't be creepy. Make plans with me... we dance (ok, grind) all night, and I just want to fucking kiss you. I wouldn't mind some more dancing, too. Did I mention that you're HOT? Yea... Caleb Hedberg hot. I rarely think guys are hot. I just wanted you to know. |
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| wtf |
[Jan. 24th, 2007|03:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  stressed | ] |
this woman at the CEL has asked me two time in the past month or so if I've lost a lot of weight. Ummmm... I don't think so. Maybe I just looked fat at the beginning of the year, or maybe I look skinny now. Either way, I think it's weird that she would be so convinced that I've lost weight to bring it up twice! |
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| funny lunch conversation |
[Jan. 22nd, 2007|01:11 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | metaphorical | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Mike Doughty | ] |
my heart needs a moat.It's inside a fortress, but the walls weren't strong enough. Nick was able to penetrate them. My heart needs a moat (a sort of three dimensional spherical moat). I'll dig it as I sink lower and lower. Once I've reached rock bottom and can't go any lower, I'll fill the moat with my tears. No men can get across the moat unless they give me a diamond. I will however, make boats out of paper (filled with bad metaphors and poetry) that kitties and babies and little ducks can use to come visit my heart. Girls/women can also come to my heart--the moat doesn't stop them. Oh, and inside the castle inside the moat, I have guns. Lots and lots of guns.
In other words, this means that I don't ever want to care about/love someone as much as I loved Nick unless I am engaged to them.
On a side note, Christine and Alison think I'm verging on psychotic. Whatever. |
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| Horny Japanese Men |
[Jan. 21st, 2007|12:46 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  surprised | ] |
After a lengthy discussion with a Japanese exchange student living in my pod (who would like to remain anonymous), I have discovered the following truths about sex in Japan:
Men wnat to have sex all the time, and if you don't have sex with them, they slowly die (you--the abstaining female--are killing them).
Prostitution is legal and socially accepted. Even boyfriends and husbands go to sex shops to have sex with prostitutes.
There are normal hotels (where sex is considered impolite) and sex hotels. Sex hotels are stocked with condomns, lubricant, sex toys, alcohol, pornography, kareokee and video games(!)
Men are so horny that the sex industry is booming.
Women should have sex with men (even if they don't want sex) because men need sex. If men don't get sex and don't go to a prostitute, they (at least the most horny) will be forced to rape women. |
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| Oh dear. |
[Jan. 16th, 2007|11:12 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sara Groves | ] |
Today, Hoang asked me if I prefered silver or gold, and if I liked flowers. Up until then, I could say with a clean conscience that I was not leading him on by hanging out so much because he had not made his intentions clear, and I didn't really know if he liked me romantially. Not anymore. I would be lying to myself if I thought is intentions were unclear. I think it's time to have the "I don't have romantic feelings for you" talk. Boo. It's not going to be a fun talk.
Yesterday, I went into the science center at 11 and didn't leave again until 5:30. That may not seem like a long time for the working world, but for a college student during interim, it's absurd. Today, it was from 9 to 10:30 and 1 until 5:30 (at least I ate lunch elsewhere and did a workout!) My practicum project is getting to crunch time. I'm slightly freaked out, starting to wonder if everyone in the group is pulling their own weight, and trying to convince myself that I can code a bunch of complicated stuff in a programming language I don't know. Our two stochastic models will take a long time to run each different scenario (once we've finished programming them). I feel like I'm micro-managing by trying to get my team to strategize (in great detail) what our final output should be, but if each run takes 12 hours of CPU time and we have to do 8 or so of these by Friday, it will be too late to realize that we didn't get some output that we really wanted but didn't think of. I keep thinking of this project in terms of the big picture, planning everything. My group members aren't planners. Sooooo, I think we've reached a good compromise. I would like more to be planned out, and I'm sure they feel like we've wasted too much time planning stuff that could change anyway, but I think eveyone still feels ok about it. In fact, I'm really impressed with how my group is relating to each other. Today, Alanna and I really disagreed about how to interpret an e-mail that got sent to us by our epideomological friend. I'm glad that we both felt comfortable arguing our point, and both of us could see each other's point, so I didn't feel (too) bad when the group chose her interpretation over mine.
Despite the stress, I really, really like the practicum. |
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| Right now I hate... |
[Jan. 10th, 2007|05:42 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | library | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | pissed off | ] |
who the fuck ever said that heartbreak was supposed to be rational? I think I'm entitled to be angry at the music major without perfect strangers calling me close minded. |
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